R.I.P. Sorin

[zandi202]

Please don't cry, Heyimbrit. It'll make me cry!

Honestly, I have lost pets to old age before, but this was the first time I ever had to choose to put a pet down and it is the absolute worse feeling in the world. I rather own a million pets that die naturally then own another that would have to be put down. The scariest part is knowing that once they put the drug in them, there is no taking it back, no second chances. It's so...final which scares me the most. At least when they die of old age I know it's because they're ready.

So I think Jace is trying to kill me. The tree Sorin had was originally Jace's and is now Jace's again. Sorin used to fall asleep under it and guess what, now Jace is doing it.

 

[Goonie]

You already know how I feel about Sorin being gone, but I'll say it here too.

Whatever you want to do to help your heart heal, be it sleeping with the towel or any of his possessions, or just cry until you run out of tears, don't ever feel bad about it because it's what YOU want to do. There is no such thing as "this may seem crazy" because we all have different ways to deal with loss. Don't let someone else tell you how to mourn.

As for Jace sleeping under the tree that used to be Sorin's, that's HIS way of mourning his loss for his brother. Like I said to your post on Facebook, I had slept on my Rottie's bed for nearly a week after he passed away, and carried his favorite stuffy with me everywhere I went, including buckling him in in the backseat of my car. When my German Shepherd, Hallie, had crossed over (I had to put her to sleep because she had seizures for four days, non stop), I carried her choke collar in my purse, then when the ex left, the collar went around the rear-view mirror in my car. It's still there today, and every time I see it, I feel that she's still with me.

 

[Esther19]

I agree wholeheartedly with Gina. I was wondering , though, if Jace heard from Sorin, and he went to sleep there to let you know that Sorin had made it to the Rainbow Bridge and that he would always be with you.

 

[Goonie]

I was wondering , though, if Jace heard from Sorin, and he went to sleep there to let you know that Sorin had made it to the Rainbow Bridge and that he would always be with you.

 

[zandi202]

I was wondering , though, if Jace heard from Sorin, and he went to sleep there to let you know that Sorin had made it to the Rainbow Bridge and that he would always be with you.

I agree with Goonie. That is a very interesting point you make.

 

[zandi202]

So today at work I was thinking: do vets grieve? Think about it, their job is to save the lives of animals and they cannot speak with them to find out what is wrong. Do ypu think they grieve over the loss of a patient? That they failed them? I only say this because when my vet, Dr. Kenna, walked intp the room so looked so sad and maybe even a little guilty that there wasn't more that could have been done.

 

[Esther19]

I'm sure they do. They are healers, and human beings. Dr. Kenna probably does feel guilt that she couldn't find the magic to heal Sorin. I doubt they grieve to the depth and extent that we do on having a pet cross over. I would imagine they have to keep some sort of professional walls around their hearts, otherwise so much loss would be overwhelming.

 

[zandi202]

I know I could never make it as a vet for that reason alone.

 

[zandi202]

Here's the link to Sorin's memorial page: https://www.beardeddragon.org/forums/viewtopic.php?f=37&t=212505

 

[Esther19]

Sorin's memorial is perfect, Liz. I particularly love the picture where his face is lit against the black background. You did everything you could for him, so please try to let go of the what ifs. He was so lucky to have you. Even though his life was way too short, it was filled with love and happiness.

 

[zandi202]

Thanks, Esther.

 

[zandi202]

Everything about this whole ordeal feels so surreal. My time with Sorin felt so short that it almost feels more like a dream rather than something that actually happened.

 

[Heyimbrit]

1. Are you trying to sell it?
2. Where do you live?

 

[zandi202]

I am selling it and I liven in Western Mass.

 

[diamc]

Liz, that Memorial for Sorin was beautiful. I know it was extremely hard writing it and going through all the pictures. You did an amazing job and we could all see his wonderful personality.

The song was so special, it made me cry but it will always be in your heart and always remembered.

You did all you could for him and more. It was obvious that he was loved very much and he knew it. As hard as it was, you made the right decision by ending his pain so he could be at peace. Your mom is taking great care of him for you.