Gina I am so sorry to hear about Digi. I have been going through some stuff of my own and have not been on lately. I am going to be up front with you with Digi. There is no way we can predict or foresee what happens with our babies. They hide things so well we just cannot predict an illness. Sometimes the symptoms come on so quickly we don't have time to react and its to late as its their nature to hide things from us and predators. There is nothing you did that was wrong, we all know how much you cared for and love your dragons. I will be honest with you, its going to hurt and will for a long while and you will beat yourself up over the passing of Digi. This is normal and no amount of us telling you not to is going to stop you from feeling how you do. However, that being said, in time you will be able to look at the memories you have of Digi that are locked in your heart and be able to smile. You need to take the time to grieve and grieve in your own way, the grieving process is unique to each of us. I can tell you that you were a wonderful mom and are a wonderful mom to your babies and that there is nothing you could have done to prevent this from happening. We as humans can only do the best we can for our animals and sometimes it just doesn't seem to be enough. Take some solace in the fact that Digi did not go alone, she was with you and had your love to make her transition easier for her. Yes we want them with us, no its not selfish, what is selfish though is to think that our pets are invincible its selfish to ourselves to think this way, you instilled that in me with the loss of my Geico and Emily. Thinking this way sets us up to feel like we neglected something, overlooked something, did something wrong. So you take the time you need to grieve, you are going to beat yourself up no matter what we tell you, you will be angry, you will feel like you should have known something was wrong, these are all normal feelings and part of the process of grieving. Take the time you need. We are all here for you when you are ready for us to be. I may sound harsh or even childish, but its not for us to understand no matter how much we wish too. I tell you this with love and kindness and hope you understand that. Again I am so sorry you lost your Digi. My heart and prayers are with you.