Jace, Zy, Sorin, Ava, Nissa, Koth, & Phoenix -->Vet Update

Hello,
My name is Liz and I have been a member of this website for a year now. I have had another blog about my reptilian babies (http://www.beardeddragon.org/forums/viewtopic.php?f=49&t=185026), but am starting a new one. I want to start the new year with a clean slate - especially since it will also start with a new moon. I want to move on from the problems of the past and look forward to the new adventures that lie ahead.
A little about me: I'm twenty-two years old and am an author - (A Shadow's Lullaby by: E. Rexer). I go to Western New England as a Creative Writing major with a minor in Philosophy. I own six reptiles, three bearded dragons and three leopard geckos. I have been with my boyfriend, Paul, for four years. I currently work two jobs - Heritage Woods (assistant living) and Table and Vine (liquor store) though I did try to quit Heritage Woods and was guilt tripped into working there per diem (once a month). I will be putting in my two weeks notice with them in February. Unfortunately it is a sad job and emotionally I cannot handle it anymore. Table and Vine doesn't give me the hours I would like, but I worked out a deal with my grandfather that will help me out financially. Now enough about me.

 

[sue09]

I would like to send you a Happy New year wish and hope things get better for you real soon,I,ve been where you are and it does finally come to an end with help. Ignore everyone except who matters to you,,Best wishes Sue x

 

[zandi202]

Thanks, Sue! And a happy New Year to you, too!

I am so thankful for the support everyone offers on this site. Everyone supports you not just with reptile care, but care for yourself as well.

 

[mortitia]

Hi

I love the pics of Ava, she has a really smiley face

I love horses and reptiles.

Like me, I have 5 horses, as well as my beardies. Do you have horses too?

Marie x

 

[zandi202]

I love horses and take riding lessons. The horse at my house is techincally my aunt's, but might as well be my grandfather's. The horse is a nut job. She's abou ten years old if not eleven and is a TB with lyme disease. The disease effects her nerves so an already sensitive horse just got ten times more sensitive. Not to mention she had a nasty streak before that happened and now it is worse. Someday I would like a horse of my own and maybe a bomb proof, beginner one for my boyfriend. Someday.

 

[chastityx]

liz i just adore your babies! i'm sorry your year is starting out badly. i've got a lot of doctors appointments to make because i've been pretty sick lately. my anxiety is awful and i think i may have to get back on meds. if you ever want to message me or anything i'm a good listener and i'm pretty good at cheering people up. i can send you pictures of the babies all day to make you happy! :3

 

[zandi202]

Thanks, Chastity. I might take you up on that offer. I hope everything picks up for you as well. 2014 seems to have taken an iffy start, but hopefully it will pick up for the best soon enough.

I have work today at Table and Vine: 4:00-10:00. Not too bad. Then I don't work the rest of the week. I'll be getting my schedule for next week tomorrow.
I finally had my dentist appointment and need to get two fillings. I lost my dental insurance so I have to pay for it out of my own pocket. I have one filling that is in a very tough spot to get and it could cost anywhere from $180-$300 to fill that one in alone due to it's bad location. I also will be getting the cavity on my front tooth take care of. It looks like my wisdom teeth are making a break for it... Well, at least one of them is. Luckily, my dentist believes that they will come on normally and I won't have to have them removed. Cheers.
The babies are doing well. They are getting pretty lazy and just lounge around. Even Sorin doesn't jump around as much as he used to.
I think it is a good thing I'm not getting too many hours right now. It looks like I will have a heavy course load this year between my two philosophy classes and my three english classes. I'm also almost done with my economics class that I took over winter break. It's online and has been brutal, but somehow I'm surviving. If I take two classes in the summer, I will only have three classes next fall. Then after that it into the big, scary world where I have no idea what I will be doing.
I mean I will try and start seriously working on my novels again and getting them published, but other than that I have no idea. There are so many things I want to do, but aren't realistic. I cannot just stay at home and write. I have to get out there and work in order to do any of that. And I'm not going to lie - a 9-5 job scares me. I'll take care of the babies, go to work, come home, make dinner, take care of the babies and then what? Will I be too tired to work on my novels? Will I ever not be working just to get my dream off of the ground? I just do not know. I am thinking about revising the first book I published and doing a second edition of that first: expanding it and making it better. It's just way too short.
The real world has me scared to death.

 

[sweetiepie9]

The real world will descend soon enough. Get through school and by the time you do, you'll have a better idea of what you want to do to earn funds, besides writing. Isn't Paul finishing at the same time? If you're going to be together (like married & living together) and he's earning a good amount of $, you might be able to work part time and write at the same time. There are going to be a lot of options for you when you graduate. I have a lot of faith you'll find your way

 

[zandi202]

Paul won't be done until the end of the spring semester in 2015. Assuming he finds a job after he graduates, he'll be starting at $70-$80k a year because he is an electrical engineer. So he'll be able to take care of everything, but I don't know. It's hard to strike it out in any kind of arts field. Maybe someday, maybe never. Who knows?

 

[sweetiepie9]

Your best bet is to get through school, your counsellor will be able to help you figure out what you really want to do, that will help. Just stay healthy and focused for now, the rest will fall into place.

 

[zandi202]

I hope so, but I don't want to have to rely on other people to help me figure out my future, if that makes sense. I feel bad because people do make suggestions and I always turn them down because they are not something that I am interested in. I don't know. Some days I just really don't.

 

[hoopyscoop]

I saw this yesterday but didnt have time so today, I freaked out because I couldn't find it. :lol: BUT, I found it!

I don't really know what to say right now, but please remember, I know it's scary, and sometimes you just don't know what to do, but this will not break you. You are strong.

 

[zandi202]

Thanks, Hoopy!

I know and understand that completely. I just get so much stress anxiety and I have a touch of claustrophobia. Oh my god, I spelt that correctly on my first try. :shock: Anyways, the anxiety I feel about the future crushes me and it is like being claustrophobic if that makes any sense.

Will post stuff about the babies tonight. Or I will try to. School starts Monday. Hip-hip no way.

 

[sweetiepie9]

It's entirely understandable about having anxiety about something that's getting closer but that you don't know how it will turn out. So you have to meditate to get over those times, think of happy things & don't mess with the future. You'll figure it out when it gets here. You have a good counsellor at school, right? So lay all this out to him and see what he has to say about it. Make sure you take your vitamins as I know they make you feel better. And if you have to get back on meds to even your moods out, do it, it will just help you. I'm at the other end of it, anxious that I won't stay healthy enough to finish off the 7 years I have to work until I retire and am free! I just have to make sure I have enough to live on. So there are a lot of stresses going on in our world. I hope you can find a way to resolve them so they become smaller and easier for you to handle. I know you're strong, you'll make it, I have faith in you, Liz

 

[zandi202]

I'm not going to lie... I cannot remember the last time I had any of my supplements. Probably not since late November.

Thanks, Deb.

 

[zandi202]

So from here on out it's the long haul. I won't be on much so sadly no pictures for a bit. School starts tomorrow. I would do a photo shoot today, but I have work and a final to type up. School starts tomorrow. I also have a dentist appointment first thing tomorrow morning to get a filling done. That filling will cost anywhere from $180-$300+ since I do not have dental insurance. This school year will also be a rough one - this is my schedule:

I am so not a fan of getting out of classes so late. I've always preferred going to class early and getting it over with. But nope, not this year. I guess it will be nice to have the opportunity to sleep in. The philosophy classes are two different ones - the night one is philosophy of Fashion and the afternoon one is Ghandi and King.Not a fan of the Non-Fiction teacher, but I guess I'll have to get over that since she is the only one who teaches it and it is a requirement for my major.

I have work today and work on Wednesday. I'm hoping the store will be empty and that they will send me home early. I'm just so tired.