Kazi - RIP my special Wee monkey.

[MissT]

Thank you Gina! It really means a lot!
Thanks Kjinx!!!

I feel lost today. I'm not sure what to do. We are out at the moment and it's so strange that I don't have to rush home to see Kazi. It's just odd

 

[Goonie]

I feel lost today. I'm not sure what to do. We are out at the moment and it's so strange that I don't have to rush home to see Kazi. It's just odd

I went through that when my Shepherd passed away. I no longer had to worry about having to take her out every 2 hours, or take her to the vet every month, or give her meds every morning, or clean up after her when she has accidents (after each seizure), or comfort and reorientate her for hours after each seizure . . . the list goes on.

Christina, that empty feeling will never go away, but will ease in time (honest). Try to switch your focus on Phoebe and Huff, even if it means having to over snuggle them to the point of them running away from you :mrgreen:

 

[sweetiepie9]

Hi Christina, I sympathize as I remember the same feeling. What helped was taking care of my dragons, as they needed me. That helped with each loss. Kept me busy, didn't mean my heart didn't ache. The feeling does get easier to handle as time goes by. I did the same, felt lost alot, but either got on the computer for found reasons to cuddle the gang. Sweetie still sleeps with me, she has a bed of Dawn's fleece blankies & her own pillow & still on top of Roger's blanket. She likes this & so do I, I just have to reach over to get a beardie cuddle. We all deal with grief in our own way, so will you. As each day goes by it will be easier to find other things to do. Plus you have Phoebe & Huff to pay attention to. My heart is sore, too, for your loss.
Take care,
Deb

 

[MissT]

We got home expecting Phoebe to have gone to her sleepy corner. But, she was still basking!! She also ate some locusts. I can't even remember the last time she ate! I'm so glad she has been here for me to look after today!
Gina and Deb, I can assure you, Phoebe and Huff will be cuddled so so much!!!!!

 

[MissT]

Kazi's fecal test results are in my inbox. I can't even bring myself to open them right now.

 

[Goonie]

Kazi's fecal test results are in my inbox. I can't even bring myself to open them right now.

 

[MissT]

I did it. I had to. I wouldnt have stopped thinking about it if I hadnt.

It showed up as 'scanty coccidia seen' which I think means there were a tiny amount, too few to really count - usually there are (+'s) to tell the levels but there were none. The concentrated float also showed up a small number of coccidia but again, not enough to determine a (+) level. Nothing else was out of the ordinary. No other parasites or yeasts.

I spoke with the vet earlier to make an appointment for Phoebe and Huff. He said Kazi was a special little beardie who had him completely baffled for the past 2 years. He said he had never seen such a 'sick' beardie, appear to be in such good health. He believes Kazi had either Adeno or Leukemia and there would have been absolutely nothing we could have done about it.

 

[louby13]

hi

im new to hear and ive just read your post and made me cry...so sorry to hear bout Kazi sounded a right charachter. my thoughts are with u. im new to beardies we had one for 3 days 4 wks ago he was 12 wks old and died of kidney disease and we only had him 3 days and it broke my heart. However we have had yoshi for 3 wks and hes settling in well after a few fears.

hope u doing ok

love to u and your family xxx

 

[MissT]

Thank you louby. We are doing ok. I'm cuddling with Huff right now. He is such a sweet little boy and is making me feel lots better right now.

 

[louby13]

ahh good glad to hear cant wait till yoshi big enough to sit on me and give me a cuddle..right now hes too damm inquizative and trys to run everywhere lol. least you got him to keep u company xx

 

[suzjohnson]

Oh yes, I know that one! LOL! It's worth doing for the peace of mind it brings. You don't want to be sitting around waiting for the other shoe to drop. I did the same to my remaining dog when one of them died in January. What he died of was so unusual there was no chance at all the other dog would have it but I had to make sure all her systems were working properly, and they were.

It's not surprising you slept for 10 hours. You've been sleep deprived for a long time now so it's good hear you can be catching up.
Give Phoebe and Huff little snuggly hugs for me. And a big one for you too!

Suz

 

[MissT]

Thanks Suzanne. It's good knowing that others understand. I'm also looking into getting adeno test kits just to be sure- the adeno test they have over here is pretty invasive and only tests for one strain so I don't really want to go down that route. Thinking about these things helps mymind function and gives me more of a focus. I need something to focus my attention on. I still burst into tears every few minutes though.

I'm glad the fecal came back as it did. It makes me feel better- i couldn't have helped him any more than I did which gives me a little peace.

 

[Goonie]

I'm glad you read the results, even more glad that it wasn't anything serious . . . and wasn't anything you could've done different.

 

[diamc]

Christina, it must have put your mind at ease just a little bit finding out that the parasite count was minimal. I know it was extremely hard for you to open the results though.

I completely understand how strange, lonely and heartbreaking it is not caring and worrying about him like you have done for so long, especially recently. It takes a long time to be able to deal with it. I just sent you a long pm explaining how I felt when we didn't have Sabrina here anymore so that you do realize that it is completely normal. (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

 

[MissT]

Im glad I was able to look. Im also glad they turned out as they did. The chat with the vet yesterday also helped.

It is lonely here today. My husband has gone to work and im not quite sure what to be doing.

Phoebe and Huff have an appointment with the vet on Saturday morning. I just want to make sure they are both in good health.