Jace, Zy, Sorin, Ava, Nissa, & Koth -->Update 12-18 w/ Pics

Hello,
I'm relatively new to this website, though I have posted questions prior to this "blog." I fell in love with bearded dragons on a trip to Petco. I've always wanted a reptile and I have a dragon statue collection at home so it seemed perfect. Jace, however, was not my first beardie. My first beardie was one of the two smaller ones. The employees hadn't gotten around to putting on of the little ones up for adoption because he would have a seizure whenever he was picked up. They were pretty sure the one I had picked wasn't the seizure one. I bought him the Wednesday before Thanksgiving and am sad to say I returned him that following Monday. This one had seizures whenever he was put down. I knew, being a new owner, that it would be better for the both of us if I returned him to Petco and that was when I got Jace, the love of my life. On a side note, the two that suffered from seizures got adopted to loving homes where someone can take care of them . Anyways, on to my picture show.

This was my first night with Jace. He no longer has that cage - he is in a bigger one and on tiles instead.

The first week montage:

I loved the way he just dug a bed and curled up.

He was so little!

This is his new cage - the sand in the dig bowl has been replaced with flaxseed

My little poser

He loves climbing on my shirt and just hang

I loved the natural blue that came out - don't know how that happened

Again, his dig box before we changed it:

He loves my computer

That's it for now, but he's a very photogenic man so there will be more to follow.

 

[zandi202]

OMgosh Sparta is so cute! I bet he's happy a knowledgeable person bought him

More like a person trying to be knowledgeable and thanks!

 

[ohmybandit]

It might be because you're finally old enough to understand what happened and you might've never actually internalized the pain until recently. Have you been thinking a lot of her often? I truly am sorry to hear what happened to your mother. Your mother was a brave woman. My mother went through the same thing with an abusive man (my father) but my siblings were in the states because their father was dying of cancer so my mom took me and brought me over and left him. He would beat her to the point where she couldn't walk.

As for Paul, he's exactly where he wants to be and if he didn't want to, he wouldn't be. I'm sure him making you happy is giving him that satisfaction and you don't have to give anything in return. That's what makes amazing boyfriends. Be happy he loves you that much

 

[zandi202]

Thanks, Ohsmileb. I haven't really thought on it too much, but I know psychology can be really powerful, even subconsciously so that's why I mentioned it. I'm sorry that your mom went through it as well. No one should have to go through abuse be it men or women or children or animals.

As for Paul, I guess that makes sense. I get really lonely, even with my babies. Most of my friend's are away at college so I can't really hang out with them.

 

[ohmybandit]

Yeah, the lonely feeling is very common but it's always good to have a strong support team behind you. If not your friends, then you also have us and I'm sure all of us would always be more than happy just to talk. I always check my phone and check this site close to once a day so if you ever need someone to talk to or vent to, feel free, I'm more than happy to listen. All my friends usually come to me for things and though I don't always have a great response, I'm always there to listen.

 

[zandi202]

Yeah, the lonely feeling is very common but it's always good to have a strong support team behind you. If not your friends, then you also have us and I'm sure all of us would always be more than happy just to talk. I always check my phone and check this site close to once a day so if you ever need someone to talk to or vent to, feel free, I'm more than happy to listen. All my friends usually come to me for things and though I don't always have a great response, I'm always there to listen.

Thanks =)

 

[sweetiepie9]

Sounds like Bandit's mom hit it on the nail. It's not unusual for this to happen, if you're concerned that it might be depression, you should talk to a professional. Do you have a good doctor you can talk to? I've been very lucky that I've never had to go through physical abuse, by my 1st husb, Eric's father (the sperm donor :lol: ) was mentally abusive, had me completely under his spell and I would do anything for him. Once I got pregnant, it was a different story and I kicked him out when Eric was a month old. Then I was a single mom for 4 years, wouldn't put that on anyone, it's tough, but after 4 years & paying off $10k of debt he left me, I moved out here to my family...putting 3000 miles between us helped a great deal.

Your situation is so much more different, it's something that is hard to resolve, which may be the reason for the blahs you're feeling. I also used to go thru depression in the winter, my doctor found out that I was very deficient in Vit D, I take 2000IU daily and haven't had that to deal with for 7 years now, so not sure if that might help your mood. I hope you know that you can vent here ANYTIME, that's what we're all here for, we're all good friends with our dragons in common, but if you ever need to get something off your chest, here is a good place.

As for Paul, he's where he wants to be, as noted before by Bandit's mom, he'd leave if you weren't what he wanted. So no worries there, just take it day by day. My thread is over 200 pages long for a good reason, it's where I've vented all my worries and woes, especially when Roger was so sick & died. Helped me to no end & I made a lot of good friends....so hope you feel better soon, k?

 

[zandi202]

Thanks, Deb. Jesus Christ, $10k of debt? Congrats to you!

I would talk to a doctor, but I don't have the cash nor do I have a good insurance. MassHealth kicked me off because I made too much money at my job, $7k in one year is too much I, guess :roll:. So I'm stuck on the school health insurance. Paul wants me to talk to his mom, she's a nurse and is familiar with psychological stuff, but I don't think that whatever I have is that worrisome. I think Paul might be blowing it out more than it is. I think I just need a good cry or something to release everything. I think I pent up too many of my emotions. Even when we have really bad fights and I know I should cry and I want to cry, my body just can't. So maybe that is it.

 

[zandi202]

Time for a happier note i.e. pictures!

Jace:

I love this picture. It does such a good job of showing my boy's colors. What a stud! :lol:

This is another good color idea of him:

Soft beardie, warm beardie, little ball of scales. Happy beardie, sleepy beardie, hiss hiss hiss.

Evil thoughts:

I'm too cool for you.

Zy:

I ain't fat!

See?

Good pic of her colors.

Slifer:
Watching me change through his peep hole, the perv!

 

[chastityx]

i just love your babies. :love5:

i hope you're feeling better. <3

 

[zandi202]

i just love your babies. :love5:

I do too, just don't know why :lol: jk

i hope you're feeling better. <3[/quote]

Thanks. I'm hoping I'll get lever this soon.

Jace was so much better once I took him out. He was all over the place.

 

[zandi202]

I got two hornworms down Ava's throat. All's good with her so far.

 

[sweetiepie9]

What great photos, Jace seems to be getting some dark orange or red more on his face, really handsome, Jace! And Zy is such a cutie, they both look so comfy sleeping, I just love sleeping beardies!

 

[zandi202]

What great photos, Jace seems to be getting some dark orange or red more on his face, really handsome, Jace! And Zy is such a cutie, they both look so comfy sleeping, I just love sleeping beardies!

It's kids or any other animal. when they're asleep they aren't causing any mayhem.

Slifer didn't eat as far as I could tell. Today was a little stressful because we unburied him and tried tong feeding him and then we moved him into a different part of my room since my grandparents will not know about him. They can't see him at all where he is. I'm such a terrible child, I know. But why should they care how many animals I have so long as I pay for them and they are all well taken care of?

I think some of my problems might come from the fact when I am alone I think of everything I said to people and how I came across them, especially when I feel that I came across as a jerk. I think letting that fester doesn't help. What is past is past, but I can't stop.

 

[sweetiepie9]

I used to do the same thing when I was alone, go over & over stuff like that in my mind until it drove me nuts. But I gradually learned that it wasn't important enough to dwell over, if people like me, they do, if not, then too bad. I learned the hard way that I have to be true to myself, that's the only way I can live with myself and when you come right down to it, you're the only one you can really depend on, not to say Paul isn't dependable, but I mean inside yourself. I learned that 2nd guessing myself wasn't worth the waste of time, that helped me keep to my 1st decision and stick to it, but admit if I was wrong. It's a hard process and seems to take a long time. I'm better at it now, but then I'm 57 :lol: I also learned that keeping things simple made life a lot easier.

 

[zandi202]

The other thing is if I do/say something, I imagine what they are thinking about me and it is never pretty. I only care what people think when I see them on the regular basis like Petco employees, my family and friends, and my boyfriend's family and friends.