Hope you are feeling a little better today. All I can say is... Every time I look at the pictures you posted of Dex, I can see the love and trust she had for you. You gave her more than time, you gave her safety, happiness and the knowledge that she mattered. I know it hurts to miss her but she's not really gone from your life. She's there beside you every move you make with Ruben, cheering you on and feeling smug because she made you the best Mummy.
Hugs from across the ocean, Frances