Hello everyone,
Thanks for the support.
I cannot even express how sad I am.
I have just spent the whole day alone, sitting in my bedroom, working online, and feeling blue.
Every time I see his tank, it makes me feel like crying.
I am so used to taking care of him - now the tank is just empty and the lights are off.
I just could not bring myself to take it all apart today.
I am just plain depressed about the whole thing.
I know he is better off, but that does not make you miss the little guy any less.
It really is like loosing a family member. It makes me think of how bad it is going to be when it is time to put down our German Shepherd.
She is at least 12 years old, possibly older - she was adopted as an adult dog from a German Shepherd rescue group,she had been abused and was considered a older adult dog when we adopted her. Her papers said 4 years old.
We have had her since 2000. She was the first of our three rescue dogs.
Her breathing is becoming more and more labored as she has become older.
I know her time is not so very far away.
As for Carni, I know it was the right thing to do, and I am not sad that I had to put him down, I am sad that he had such a rough time at the end.
Ya know, we all want to think that when it is time for something to expire, that the passing will be painless and easy.
Sadly, that is just not how things work.
Why would something expire at all if its health were not failing.
No matter how you slice it, it is not pretty.
I often think of how cruel life can be - I guess I am one of those ones who thinks far too much on the matter, because when I see a fire in California, I always think of the animals there, or when I see a squirrel that has been hit by a car, I think of the babies that she may have left in the nest...
Just recently I saw a couple of teen guys in a little truck hit a squirrel on the street next to our house and yell wooohhhooooo.... (cruel)
I still have nightmares about a raccoon that I saw hit once - but it did not die instantly.
It was horriffic to me.
Anway - I am sure this will be with me for a very long time.
I will be ok, but to me it is just one more of those things that I see as the cruel reality of life as we know it.
Sad..
Rhonda