@Kalyn876 - I fully believe in the power of supplements... unfortunately Vit B has the opposite effect on me; I tend to get really pumped up and wanna enter a demolition derby. :wink: And actually, I already take a daily supplement, consisting of high levels of Vitamin C, Vitamins B6 and B12, and green tea extract, amongst other healthy goodness.
@Menolly07 - Thank you so much for your kind and empathetic words; that's exactly how I'm feeling. In addition to feeling like I'M failing Leo, I feel like my VETS are failing him as well. I just don't get it. After all the money that I've thrown at them (setting aside for the moment just how much they *haven't* charged me), after all of the tests, after all of the medications... why the *bleep* haven't they found out what's wrong?? I've gotten nothing but encouragement from everyone here, telling me that I've been doing an outstanding job, but everyone is their own worst critic... and I still feel like I could have been, and could be, doing more.
@Tracie - We ran a CBC panel on Feb 25th; the WBC count was still elevated and 24% of the cells found were "unusual". I'll have to get the actual results and post them here. We've tested for Crypto twice, using two different technologies, and both times the results were negative. Mycobacterium were not mentioned, however he'll be tested soon (see Leo's update further down). I can ask about testing his PH level. Every time I think they have ruled out Cancer, they keep bringing it back up, because of his chronic wasting illness. I've always wondered if this whole thing is respiratory-related, or if it began that way, as in the beginning he was having such hard forced exhalations, and wet coughing. A culture was ran from swabs taken from his mouth and cloaca, mixing the two samples together to save a bit of money, and I was TOLD that with the exception of the small amount of psuedomonas grown, everything was the normal bacteria found. We're going to go ahead and treat with Itraconazole this week (see Leo's update further down). As far as him black-bearding, he does so on occasion, more often lately, though it's never full-on black, and only on very rare occasion will he ever get stress marks on his belly. Oh, and Amanda is the name of one of the members following my thread, not mine. :laughing6:
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Alright, I'm of the opinion that Leo's Vet visit went... well... today. Truthfully, I've always had a preference for Dr. Joseph (who saw Leo today), but when Dr. Forney began treating Leo so regularly, I just decided to stay with him, to keep things consistent for Leo. Anyway, one of the things I prefer about Dr. Joseph is that she doesn't sugar-coat things, and doesn't try to give any false hope. When I took Leo out of his toasty carrier so she could examine him, the first thing she said after "Oh, poor thing," was that he looked terrible. She said that he really did look to be in bad shape, and was extremely thin. It *almost* made me feel... better?... that someone else sees the severity of the situation as I do. Leo was his usual good boy during his examination, waiting patiently for her to be done, however once she finished, he did something that he's never done before... I was standing by the examination table, with my hands resting on the edge, and once the Vet took her hands off of Leo, he stood up on all fours, walked straight over to me, and buried his head under my hand. It just about broke my heart.
Dr. Joseph and I went over his chart, as well as my notes, and we discussed everything that's been done so far, as well as what hasn't. After a lot of back-and-forth, and coming to the same page and same conclusions, we have a new plan of action, and it's probably going to be the hardest thing I've had to do thus far...
We're going to be doing the barium swallow for the X-Rays, to check out his GI tract. We're going to be running a Mycobacterium test, specifically for Tuberculosis. He's going to be put on Itraconazole as well as Amoxicillin, and will be routinely given a palm oil supplement to boost his immune system. And because all of this needs to be given EVERY SINGLE DAY, without fail, starting immediately... (and here's where it gets devastating for me)... I'll be dropping him off at the Vets tomorrow, to be boarded for 18 straight days. I had explained to Dr. Joseph that my schedule begins to get tricky next week, and that I'll be working practically for two weeks straight, but that I'll have just about two weeks off starting at the end of the month. She had replied that Leo couldn't wait that long, which is why I agreed to let them board him. My anxiety level had risen (as well as the tears) at the thought of letting him out of my sight and care for so long, but I really do feel like it's my only option, as I have no one to help me, and I HAVE to work these trips. The cost of everything (even after the 20% discount she gave me) will completely wipe out my account, and the money I had set aside to get my truck fixed as well as for the build of everyone's new custom enclosures. I asked them if it would be alright if I called every day, to check in on him, and was given a smile and an assurance that it would be fine. I also plan on stopping by on the few days off I have during this time, just to spend a little bit of time with him.
After I got Leo back home and tried to feed him (I was able to get 20 waxworms into him, but he flat-out refused to swallow any dubia roach nymphs), I went to the local PetCo specifically to pick up a couple boxes of Repta-Boost (I was told that I could drop Leo off with any favorite foods, toys, snuggly things, hides, etc) to give to the Vet for use during his boarding. Granted, they DO have the Carnivore Care on-hand, but it would be more expensive for me to have them feed that. Besides, Leo takes very well to the Repta-Boost. I have also ordered some more waxworms and butterworms, which should show up within the next few days, that I plan on dropping off as well. Truth be told, I plan on putting together quite the little care package for Leo...
I was sent home with the small amount of paperwork required for boarding, in which I was encouraged to list his routines and habits, tricks I use, foods and supplements, current meds, and anything else I deem important. As I was checking out, I laughingly warned the staff that they would soon be sick of me and my OCD stubborn Aries ways, as I'm sure I'll be dropping Leo off with a BOOK of instructions, not to mention just how often I fear I'll be calling.
I have to leave on one of my two-day red-eye trips tomorrow evening, so I'll only have a few hours to spend with Leo before having to drop him off at the Vet. I feel my mind shying away from the prospect, as every time I think about it, I begin to tear up... I'm sure I'll be a wreck tomorrow.