I wish my mom was more like you then. My mom has been horrible through this. The day after it happened, she left to go to fox woods for the weekend, and she promised when she got back she would bring Ella to get cremated, but she wouldnt let me put her in the freezer, had to put her in the shed. She never brought her, and she is still in the shed. I even already picked out a nice urn for her, but I dont even know if I should get it now, as she is STILL, over 2 weeks, in the shed! First, my mom kept promising to bring her. Now, she doesnt want to, because its a "waste" of money (even though its MY money), she was "just a lizard" and "you have 12 other pets. What, are you just going to get them all cremated and keep their ashes? dont you think its a little weird" I hate her right now. It might be too late by now, even if I do get my mom to realize how bad I want to get her cremated. She keeps asking me why I dont just bury her, or cremate let HER cremate Ella. I dont want to bury her, because we move so much, I will never have a spot to go visit her. Atleast if I have her ashes I will always have her with me.
Ugh, sorry for the rant. Im just really upset with my mom right now. Shes the type of person that would rather talk about how great of a cheerleader my sister is, other then her vegetarian soccer playing animal-lover other daughter.
On another note, I'm so happy I have Blaze and Wayne. When Ella first died, I atleast had my best friend with me. And I felt really guilty feeding Blaze and Wayne, and seeing them heathy and eating, and I just couldnt do it. My friend did it for me. I felt like a horrible person. On one hand, I felt like I was betraying Ella by feeding the other two when she was dead, but on the other hand, I couldnt betray Blaze and Wayne and never feed them again. I was an emotional, mental wreck, and went to school then came home, fed my other pets, and went to bed everyday the first week, not wanting to do anything. Last week was a little better, but still bad. I have been sick this week, and was planning on cleaning her tank out today since I was home but still couldnt do it. So, it still sits there, in my room. And I still need to get Ella cremated. If only I could drive there, but I only have my permit and her vet is over a half hour away..