Hi Kaitlyn,
I know, too, how you feel. I still miss Sweetie every day, even though I don't think of her all the time anymore. I have 4 boys to take care of (well Rubio & Lonzo are still brumating, which is kind of late & Leo just went to bed in his hide today, so not sure what he's about). Didi's up all the time & hates it when I won't leave him out when I go to work during the week, he thinks he owns the living room & he spazzes out when I let Leo out. Beardies are funny. :mrgreen:
I did a memorial for Sweetie, I still look at it every week or so, to check out all the pics I put on it. It reminds me of all the good times we had & how close we were. I try not to blame myself for not seeing how sick she was getting, sometimes we just don't listen to our instincts when it comes to our beardies, and you're right, after all the caring & worrying, it hits you so hard when you lose them. I'm glad you have that pillow, that must help alot. I'll never get used to not having Sweetie in my life and I still have her tank in my bedroom. No rush to change anything right now.
So take care & thanks for giving us all updates of Blaze & Wayne, they're so cute!
Deb