DONT LAY WITH YOUR DRAGON

I have always let my dragon fall asleep on my chest in a towel and then moved him to his tank. Tonight I was sooo exhausted from a long day that I accidently fell asleep and murdered my best friend who was the happiest healthiest best friend I have ever had. After I woke up about an hour ago and desperately tried to resuscitate him and pleading with God to bring him back and balling like a baby on the bathroom floor my eight year old waking up and crying with me and counselling me and praying with me. I cant sleep so I have decided to try and prevent anyone else from feeling the pain I am so badly suffering from. I murdered him.... I crushed and suffocated him.... I loved him second only to my only son. He saved me from a major depression I was going through and repaid him by taking the very breath of life out of him. MOST LIKELY YOU WILL NEVER HURT YOUR DRAGON BY ACCIDENTALLY FALLING ASLEEP, BUT IT IS REALLY REALLY REALLY NOT WORTH THE RISK. OR THE PAIN. REST IN PEACE LYRIC Jan 25, 2013-April 25th, 2013 I am so sorry handsome little man. I never deserved you and you certainly did not deserve the horrible careless tragic early end to your precise life. good bye forever beardeddragon.ORG thank you so much for helping to raise my beloved friend for the short period of time I was blessed to have him.

 

[herpgirl2510]

I am so sorry. It was an accident don't be to hard on yourself.

 

[Eloisethelizard1]

hey don't go to hard on yourself i almost sat on my beardie Eloise

 

[Heather85]

I am so sorry that happened but it was an accident, don't beat yourself up

 

[BlueMorpho]

Aww!!! Hugs!! You and your family will be in my prayers! It was wonderful to share your time with Lyric, and we thank you for that. Sometimes these blessings are short, but to know that he was there for you when you needed him is a memory worth cherishing.
I hope you've found friends here at BD.org, and know that we are here if you need someone to talk to, vent to, cry with, or relive the happy times Lyric brought to you.
I have learned that this site is more than just sharing pictures and stories of our lizards, but it is also a place to find friends and encouragement, too.
I do hope that in time, you may find it in you to share your heart with another dragon.
We loved little Lyric, and will miss him.

 

[NatashaDawn]

Thank you all so much... Even though I know it was an accident I still hate myself at the moment for the careless mistake that cost me a precious friend. Through the day I have had more time to think about it and I know that I will someday buy another dragon. Maybe try to do a rescue in Lyrics honor or maybe here in a couple months buy one of his full baby brothers/sisters that just hatched. I miss him so much and feel so empty coming home and not having to do all of his usual needs, but instead having to bury him. He was just 3 months old today and was going to be a very big and beautiful dragon and I took that from him. I know and understand it was an accident, but that knowledge does not ease the pain I feel. I really appreciate the support and kind words. No one I know in person actually understands... all I kept getting today when people asked why I seemed like my dog just died and I told them it was much worse than that it was my bearded dragon they just looked at me funny and was like... a lizard? thats why you are upset... they dont understand.... until you have loved and been loved by a bearded dragon I suppose you really couldnt. HIM SLEEPING ON MY CHEST LAST WEEK HE WAS ALWAYS THE MOST COMFORTABLE RIGHT OVER MY HEART....A PLACE HE WILL ALWAYS BE.

 

[Cherie]

I am so, so very sorry. I hurt for you and am crying like a baby for you. It hurts to loose a good friend. I understand people's perception of us lizard lovers. When I talk about Spike or Sampson, people look at me like I have lost my mind. Please keep your chin up. There is a beardie out there somewhere, maybe not hatched yet, that needs you. Love and kisses coming your way.

 

[NatashaDawn]

Thank you for your kind and sympathetic words... they really do mean a lot. I buried him today and am going to try to find a flower that I can plant seeds over his grave that will grow effortlessly and every year rebloom. Not sure what yet, but something that can hold up in Texas. I had to bury him at my mothers house so that I will always be able to go see him... since she is never going to move and we move all the time. Also going to try and find some of those little 6-7 inch tall plastic white fences that go around gardens and flower beds and frame his grave so it is as beautiful as he will always deserve.... my son, bless his heart, caught a bunch of bugs and worms and put in the grave before we covered it so he would have food for the trip to beardie heaven. I still tear up and cry just thinking about it and the missing Lyric empty tank is like a dagger straight to my heart. He was my first dragon experience and he changed my life... as I am sure all our beardies have a way of doing... they are so not like other reptiles it is almost odd. I appreciate... truly to have someone out there to unload this heavy painful burden unto that will be empathetic to the severity of a loss of this sort, especially an unexpected unnecessary tragedy like this one.

 

[BlueDragon09]

I don't have the same situation but my dog, 12 or 13 yrs had to pass away, I know she was just so old and in pain.
It hurt, because she has been through everything with me. Sorry about Lyric, he's happy now, happy he had you and
your son for a family to love. Just remember, he loved you two with all his heart and I know we all believe our dragons
love us. I really didn't like reptiles at first I was 17 yrs old and my parents brought this 6" dragon from the pet store
and sat him in my room in his enclosure..he's just the cutest thing, I fell in love. 9 years later, I'm 25 and I love my 9
year old dragon...he got me into reptiles, I would go to any reptile show if I could.

 

[BlueMorpho]

Buddy was the first pet I could truly call "mine". He was a budgie that spent a short three years teaching me how to care for a pet and the value of animal companionship. Before him, it was the family dogs and cats. He was special. I came home from a camping trip (during which my older brother had looked after the pets) to find him "sleeping" on the cage floor. I was ten. I blamed myself for a long time, because I think I made the label on the "do not feed to Buddy" bucket for the seed chaff hard to read.
My big brother made a cross for his grave and my mom and I transplanted some bleeding hearts and forget-me-nots and buried him outside my bedroom window.

Those memories will be with me forever, as I'm sure your son's special contribution and time with Lyric will stay with him forever.

 

[bumblebee]

I'm so sorry!

 

[NatashaDawn]

Thank you for your shared experiences and your sympatheticness towards our suffering. It really means so much to know people care and most of all understand. I was only blessed with Lyric since March 11th, 2013... So barely 6 weeks, but it feels like I had him for years... the attachment was instant and I knew from the moment I picked him out of the clutch of 14 that I would do anything for him to be happy and healthy... I changed my life around him. I stressed over everything and in the end failed miserably at making it so. I have learned so much and I will never forget him. I am making up a photo collage now to have walmart print out into a 20x20 to hang on the wall and my son really wants me to put a picture of him on his grave, but I really dont know how to successfully pull that off... I guess double laminate it and super super super glue it to the rock? Do bleeding hearts and forget me nots grow every tear or do they only bloom once and then have to be replanted?

 

[BlueMorpho]

I think the photo collage and the photo on the grave sound like lovely ideas!!
Please don't say you failed!! You didn't. Mistakes happen. You loved Lyric! That is so very clear!

As for the flowers, we lived near a ravine where bleeding hearts grew wild, so I dug some up and planted them on his grave which is in a shady spot. The forget-me-nots came from the front garden, and they've been there every spring since... Though I've never had any luck growing bleeding hearts in any other place, go figure!

 

[JulieGeek]

Oh, honey, I am so sorry. It's horrible when we feel like we've failed one of those who share our lives and look to us.

Try not to beat yourself up too much. I know it's hard. You mentioned depression--please reach out for whatever help you need to successfully make it through this tough time.

You're in my prayers.

 

[ohmybandit]

I'm so sorry for your loss.