Does your beardie poop in his/her sleep? (blood results p.9)

[GeckoGarden]

Have you considered a necropsy too see what was really going on? Just a thought, I know I really want to know what caused her to get so sick so fast..

Still thinking about you both.

Hugs from me, the dragons, and the baby bird

Yes, and they did one. It looks like a cancer that just spread too far. I rest assured in knowing letting her go was the right decision as there was nothing we could have done.

Her pancreas, spleen and liver were failing. She had two masses coming out of her liver (node like) and pushing against her lungs-that is what probably caused the heavy breathing in the end. The lungs were very red. She had nasty follicles on her ovaries that were infected. He took tissue samples to be sent to the Reptile and Amphibian Pathology Lab. As soon as the results are in, he will call me. He is almost certain it was a cancer.

Hindisght is 20/20, but ONE YEAR AGO I took her to another herp vet. Her x-rays and fecal were fine. BUT her calcium was high and her protein was low. He said, "Eh. She looks fine, we'll just wait and see." I suspect that was the start of it and I am devastated because it always ate at me.I came in here because my boyfriend found Pudgy on her back and she hadn't been eating well. People told me to get rid of her vet and I didn't listen because he was supposed to be one of the best. In the end, I ended up taking her to Dr B who was a godsend. Her vet said nothing was wrong. Then July 1st when her eye was shut I KNEW something was wrong and took her back to that vet's office. They just said ear infection. He had felt the masses before and said they were fat pads!!! NO they were not. They were parts of her liver.

I feel so guilty. Guys, yesterday my boyfriend brought her so we could go up to see Dr. B and warned me that her mouth was a mess. It looked rotted, literally like something was eating it from the inside out. Dr. B could not believe how much she had declined in just a few days. He took some q-tips to look around and there was blood! My baby was in so much pain. She could hardly lift her head. Dr. B told me she was definitely dying. He knew she would not survive anesthesia and today he confirmed it with the autopsy. My boyfriend changed her position and Dr. B noticed she breathed better, but it was a position that no healthy beardie would have stood. She was wheezing and doing puffs of air every few minutes. It was scary and sad. I sat and cried alone in the room holding her and telling her how much I love her. My boyfriend and I said our goodbyes and I thanked her for being in my life and told her how lucky I was to have her and that mama loves her and I let her go. It was so painful and I just hope she knew that I didn't want her to suffer.

I did not have a good night last night. This morning was not so great either. I feel emptiness in my heart and our home doesn't feel the same without her. I walked over to her tank to see her and realized she was gone. Logically, I know these things happen and there is no explanation. But my heart wonders why and how this happened? Why Pudgy? She was this amazing little girl who spread love and laughter everywhere she went. Our hearts are so broken. I can't stop crying and I really just want everyone here to know that you all helped keep me sane these last 24 days. I am so thankful there are just no words. I also thank you for understanding what that precious little girl meant to us and what we are going through right now. Pudgy was very loved and will always live on in our hearts and through Pudgy and Pals. If you didn't get to meet her, San Diego Pets Magazine did a wonderful story on my beautiful girl in their July issue: http://issuu.com/sandiegopets/docs/sdpm0711/16

I know she is no longer suffering, but I am angry and mad. I just want her back. This is going to take an extremely long time to heal. I miss her every second of the day.

Thank you all, again. I will let you know what Dr. B says when the pathology gets back. I do take solace in knowing that she is no longer suffering. I just wish she had longer. I have her fleece blanky nearby and will always keep her in my heart and soul.

Good night my little burrito girl. Mommy and Daddy miss you so much.

I started crying when I read this.. I wish I could come give you a hug in person,

 

[littlebirdy]

This is the saddest thing ever. I hope you continue writing kid's books about beardies. Pudgy will touch people who never even met her through her story. I am so sorry that you are going through this. We lost our Bowser after five weeks and I cried so hard. I cannot imagine losing a pet so suddenly after years of companionship. Our prayers are with you.

 

[mellu]

Oh, bless. I've never lost a beardie but after I lost my dog, who I got when she was 4 when I was 11 and lost her when I was 19, she was old, blind and could barely walk anymore so mom convinced me it was time to let her go, she deserved it, 12 is a good age for a Lhasa. After I couldn't go home. I had to stay with my dad because I was just too devastated to lay in my bed and not have her at my feet, and the couch smelled like her so I couldn't sleep there either. The same thing happened with my cat(who I mentioned before, same thing, cancer). I know how heartbreaking it is to lose an animal who means the world to you. Remember she loved every second with you and you were the best momma she could have ever had, try to remember the good times and her quirks, it'll never go away, I still cry for my patchie-bia and it's been 3 years now. I'll never have another patchie or another cherry but you love new animals in different ways. You'll be okay and she is living it up now, wherever she is <3.

 

[PudgysMom]

Thank you to all. I am sorry I haven't been in sooner. I am actually quite under the weather myself.

I miss her every second and still go up to her terrarium to tell her good morning and that I love her and then I realize she isn't there. My heart aches, but I know she is no longer suffering and that is the only comfort I can get out of this. I sleep with her fleece blanky LOL. Her little pal Coco (a ****zu) is here visiting and looking all over for my Pudgy. So sad. They got along so well and Coco was so protective of Pudgy.

I am not ready for another yet. I would feel like I am trying to replace my girl. My heart needs more time, but I know if I am meant to have another, we will find our way to each other.

Pudgy and Pals and our books will go on. My girl has a legacy. I don't want to let her down.

Thanks again to all for your support and understanding. It has meant so much to Nathan and me.

 

[PudgysMom]

Something funny...

On Tuesday I became quite ill (okay, that is not the funny part).

I have been in and out of the hospital a few times and I am waiting on test results.

Nathan went out the other night and took my fob with him. This is a fob for those who don't know: http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_w1HuCtkEf0M/SO5xOlD5bPI/AAAAAAAAAJ8/2p7CkIilQOg/s1600-h/Fob.jpg

The little grey thingy...anyway, you use it to access doors/gates/garages/etc in buildings. You have to have one to get in and out of my building. So he swears he got home and put it on the dresser. He couldn't find it for two days. Today he went crazy looking for it (it has a grey band attached to it) and it was in a box of Saltine Crackers.

I am telling you Pudgy did it! She was such a funny girl I bet she did it. HAHAHA

There is just no explanation, but it would be wonderful if she was playing tricks on us haha. I miss her so much all of the time.

 

[lauraj1055]

I just sat here and read your post from day one.. I saw this post about pooping in their sleep, but never really opened it.. Then I saw in another post someone saying Pudgy passed away and I was shocked.. I remember answering your questions about the Reptisun, and you saying her eye started doing that the day after you got the Powersun... I also thought it was weird if it were the light, it would be only one eye swollen.. So, I am just shocked and very sad to hear about Pudgy.. I know how it is to lose a beloved pet. I lost my little Tia in March 2010, and then in April this past year, I lost my yellow lab Sadie at 11 years old. I still cry every once in awhile, and think of them often. I ended up rescuing an abused yellow lab, Hannah because that was the only way I could make sense of Sadies death.. She had to go, so that another dog can be saved.. Hannah will never replace Sadie, but my heart feels so good to know that I saved Hannah from a life of neglect, and even worse....

R.I.P. Pudgy.. go see Sadie, she always loved beardies...

This was Sadie the day we had to put her to sleep (she had cancer, and went downhill so fast)

Hannah, the one that was saved because Sadie died too young:

 

[PudgysMom]

Thank you, so much. Sadie was a beauty.

Thanks again to everyone. My heart is still broken and I take it day by day. I got my Pudgy's ashes back over the weekend, and I swear I hear her little claws clicking on the tile in the condo at night. I miss her SO MUCH, but just remember she is not suffering. Your support meant and continues to mean the world.

Please make sure to follow along as I create Pudgy's book series Pudgy and Pals: www.facebook.com/PudgyNPals

Heather

 

[Drache613]

Hello Heather,

I hope you are doing a little better.
I know the pain of loss & it is crippling mentally, I realize. I just want to say that while Pudgy is gone, she is always & will always be with you. I am positive that you will see her again. I know she is happy to lend her blankie to you.


XO,
Tracie

 

[PudgysMom]

Hi, everyone.

I wanted to come in and let you know that the autopsy report did confirm Pudgy had Lymphoma. It had spread to every single organ. I just had no idea and I still keep asking over and over how this could have happened. I survived lymphoma! Logically I know it just comes and there is no reason. But in my Pudgy? I was so careful with her. I just feel so lost.

I still miss her every single day, and I still feel like a piece of me is missing. I am better, but my heart aches for her and I am still angry she was taken from me so early.

San Diego Pets Magazine did a beautiful memorial to her in their September issue. They also put one of my favorite pictures of the two of us together in a beardie article. I don't agree with everything that vet said, but I do appreciate they put our picture in. It's page 19 and the memorial is on page 23.
http://issuu.com/sandiegopets/docs/sdpm0911/5

Thank you all, again, for being here for me. I don't know that I am ready for another beardie, but if I ever am I know where to go!

Hope you and your babies are well.

Heather

 

[Drache613]

Hello Heather,

I am so sorry that Pudgy had lymphoma. I don't know why she had to go so early in her life & I know it isn't fair. I do know that you will see her again, one day. I really hope that are able to think about her & the good times more often than the times that she was ill. In time, the pain will get less & you will be able to deal with things a little better.

Tracie

 

[lauraj1055]

What a beautiful memorial page for her... And the picture is precious!

 

[PudgysMom]

Thank you both, and for being there for me during such a hard and sad time.

I look back and have so many laughs and smiles. Pudgy gave everyone such a thrill and I know only fellow beardie owners could truly understand that connection we share with our little ones.

Pudgy will always live on. Thank you again for reading along with her story.