Burnt out

[BigD16]

Thank you =) It's hard but I think its for the best.

 

[BigD16]

So,

My mom is away at my uncles until the 29th of this month training for work. I am absolutely torn and lost without her, Im going througb alot emotionally and my dad is at my throat and causing all kinds of problems with me. and him and my brother are arguing non stop. So if im lucky enough to survive long enough through all this crap until my mom gets home, and I dont lose it and get thrown into jail, Im going to start working on getting rid of the beardies once she gets home. Her and I have ALOT to talk about on the phone tomorrow and I plan on bringing up getting rid of the beardies.

So bopefully within the next month I can get them rehomed and gone. I finally made a decision. It sucks, But its what has to be done right now. Because im honestly going to be lucky if i even make it through the first few weeks of college with how stressed and beaten I feel.

 

[sweetiepie9]

I had a feeling there were more issues than just the beardies & I'm sorry to hear about the family stress you're going through. Just consider that you're sending your beardies to homes where they will be cared for, so you don't feel guilty about your decision anymore. If you don't take care of yourself first, no-one else will. So take heart that you're still young, with a different kind of life ahead of you. Don't beat yourself up anymore about your decision, it's the best decision for you and your beardies. Good luck, if you need to vent, pm me anytime.
Deb

 

[ShannyBeard]

So,

My mom is away at my uncles until the 29th of this month training for work. I am absolutely torn and lost without her, Im going througb alot emotionally and my dad is at my throat and causing all kinds of problems with me. and him and my brother are arguing non stop. So if im lucky enough to survive long enough through all this crap until my mom gets home, and I dont lose it and get thrown into jail, Im going to start working on getting rid of the beardies once she gets home. Her and I have ALOT to talk about on the phone tomorrow and I plan on bringing up getting rid of the beardies.

So bopefully within the next month I can get them rehomed and gone. I finally made a decision. It sucks, But its what has to be done right now. Because im honestly going to be lucky if i even make it through the first few weeks of college with how stressed and beaten I feel.

Speaking from experience as I grew up in a very tumultuous home as a kid and young adult, this too shall pass. Your situation is temporary. My advice, and I think I have a really good background on this, is that you need to open your eyes and see through what you are going through. If you can step back and be objective about your situation, and try to remove yourself emotionally, you will be far better off. Don't give in to the situation, as that is a sure sign of weakness on your part. Rise above. Make that a challenge and see what you can learn about yourself when it is all over. You will meet people who will try to instigate things and bring you down in life, or bring you down to their level. Don't give your Dad the SATISFACTION. Only you can control your reaction to negative situations, not your Dad or anyone else. GOOD LUCK and be strong.

 

[BigD16]

SweetiePie9 - Unfortunately family based stressed has been the main problem for me. It's just gotten me to the point where I have to be an absolute bear all day every single day of my life just to make it through another day each day, and when Im not a complete bear I am at my absolute lowest emotionally. I think I have finally made a decision and think it would be best for me to move on and make sure they go to a loving home. So as I mentioned in my last reply, I think when my mom gets home on the 29th, Im going to sit down and talk with her and let her know its time to start getting rid of them and that it's time for me to move on and try to get my head straight.


ShannyBeard - I can see what im going through (in a sense.). I know im not the kid I used to be and see just how low and depressed I've become. I have tried removing myself entirely from the situation emotionally,mentally,physically, But I always get thrown back into the volatile mix. unfortunately theres alot of bad blood between my old man and I and alot of deep wounds that wont ever heal. So im always having to fight tooth and nail to keep myself from knocking someone out, Specifically him.