Jason,
I just came online and read your Memorial for Mayze, and I was crying by the time I got to the second paragraph. I am so very, very sorry for your loss.... I know how hard it is to lose a pet that you love so much, However, you need stop beating yourself up about the things that you feel you didn't you didn't do enough of for her!
Before you, she had nothing....no good care, no good food, and no attention. She must have felt as if she didn't matter at all...and then YOU brought her home. You gave her a wonderful life. A clean and bright tank to call her own, a good, healthy diet, proper care, and most importantly of all, your love. For the first time in her life, she mattered to someone....do you know how many pets go through their entire lives being ignored or neglected and NEVER have that????? Although her time with you was short, it was a good life. Don't you dare think that you could have done better for her! She was the luckiest little girl alive when YOU brought her home, and don't you EVER forget that!
You need to remember all the things that you did right, not the things that you think you did wrong. Not a single one of us could have done any better, and I'm sure that everyone on this forum feels the same. With every post you wrote, and every picture you added to this thread, the love that you felt for all of them came shining through, and it still does.
I know how much it hurts right now, but try to remember the good times, and not the end.
Mayze knew how much she was loved, and now she's in a better place, with no sickness and no pain, and she's taken all the love that you gave her along with her, to tide her over until you meet again. As long as you keep her memory in your heart, then she's never really gone....
It will get easier as time passes, and if you need to talk, I'm here...and again, I am so sorry for your loss...
Hugs,
Denise