I'm sorry you had to do that to Zeke. I can imagine how hard it was, yet it would be harder to watch him die from the cancer, you knew that. I do know you will never have another Zeke, but you will find another beardie that needs your love. This is from one who lost 4 in a 2 year period. That was hard, but we have two now that are used to the nuttiness (I'm sure that's their opinion sometimes) of us. We love them, yet we still miss those that went before.