AHBD":26hbwmka said:
Thankfully you now know what happened, and that it was quick. And you can see from there pics that she was well -taken care of as was already mentioned. Even relaxed + chillin' out on the deck ! I know you'll miss her, so Lotus will be your comfort buddy for a while now....maybe there's room for a new rescue if/when the right time comes along.
Thank you so much for your kind words, they really do help. I'm still kind of in shock, no matter how much I've cried it still doesn't feel real... like a terrible dream. Lotus has been wonderful and sweet and cuddly, almost like she knows I'm at my wit's end. She was such a good girl at the vet yesterday. She usually stresses out majorly so I was surprised to hear that she did fine through the bloodwork and X-rays. She hasn't even pooped on me recently lol.
As for another dragon, I feel kind of guilty for already thinking about it - I'm going to wait a good while before that happens though, to make sure I'm ready. I don't want another dragon to distract me from Monster's memory & I know I have to face the pain. Maybe I'll feel a bit better once I have her ashes back at home with me. It's just that I've succeeded at everything in my life that I've ever put a ton of effort into, until now. I know it wasn't my fault, but I'm a "control freak" and having something like this happen beyond my control just leaves me feeling so... broken.
On the bright side, I took myself out to lunch today so that's what I'm doing now - enjoying some seriously spicy Thai food (ouch, and yum!) with fried egg rolls and a few beers, just by myself looking over pictures of Monster and enjoying the "me time". I also took yesterday off of work (I work 60+ hours per week) and I'm proud of myself for indulging a little, as I've always been bad at that & very hard on myself. Monster taught me to take what you want out of life, just like she did. If she wanted to go outside then she would scratch at the front door like a dog haha! She loved
bath time and would even run into our bathroom when it
wasn't bath time and try to climb up the side of the tub, of course she got a soak just as she wanted whenever she did that. She hardly ever ate unless it was a treat like berries or babyfood, unless I hand fed her. All in all, this dragon knew she could get anything she wanted out of us and took full advantage of it... and I admire her for that.
Rest in peace little Monster, my sweet baby girl