I'm having a much more difficult time than I ever thought I would with this but my friend just died last Wednesday and I'm a bit torn up over it. I've been wanting to come on here and post about it but couldn't gather up the words. I finally sign in and see this memorial area so that's amazing.
He was close to 7 years old and I can't stop thinking about what I could have done differently. I knew something was off the last few months. He barely moved and wouldn't eat anything. I even tried force feeding him through a syringe but after a week of that he started getting real angry with me... Shaking his head, his spikes got harder than I've ever felt and were stabbing into me.
Now I'm in this weird place where I don't want to erase him from my family's lives but having his empty tank linger around in our living room just brings back memories all day long. Sorry if this is weird but he was a family member to me and I feel so terrible because I've had kids over the last few years and once the kids came, it was more difficult to bring him to play every single day like I used to. I constantly feel like I let him down and he was depressed.
Thanks for reading. It feels good to get this out. People around me don't understand.
He was close to 7 years old and I can't stop thinking about what I could have done differently. I knew something was off the last few months. He barely moved and wouldn't eat anything. I even tried force feeding him through a syringe but after a week of that he started getting real angry with me... Shaking his head, his spikes got harder than I've ever felt and were stabbing into me.
Now I'm in this weird place where I don't want to erase him from my family's lives but having his empty tank linger around in our living room just brings back memories all day long. Sorry if this is weird but he was a family member to me and I feel so terrible because I've had kids over the last few years and once the kids came, it was more difficult to bring him to play every single day like I used to. I constantly feel like I let him down and he was depressed.
Thanks for reading. It feels good to get this out. People around me don't understand.