She threw up, and has been having diarrhea since I got her.

[Abbipetty]

Do you have a pic of her beard that isn't showing, honestly that doesn't look like black bearding to me.
The little one is Zsa Zsa, hers always looks like that. The big one is Zen he is black bearding (not full, he could get much darker)

Yeah I do! I’ll post some of her normally. I’m gonna rant really quick too, because I feel like I need to let it out, but please feel free to skip it. I’m worried that her symptoms are due to my care. Like what if it’s something I’m doing? I cannot stop thinking that I could be doing better for her, but I don’t have as much income as I did when I first got her, so I have to be really thoughtful about what I buy now. She in hindsight has everything she needs but I don’t know if I’m missing something crucial. I just want her to be better. When I get pain next, I’m gonna buy a solar meter to check uvb and make sure that that’s good. Other than that, the only thing I could think of that could be causing this that isn’t necessarily and underlying issue, is stress. And what if I’m causing it, I’d never forgive myself. She’s also going through a pretty major shed right now, and she does definitely stress when she’s shedding. Anyways, here’s some more pics of her! (Also, I tried to put her on the heating pad tonight to keep her warm but she moved right off, and the vet said to limit handling and I can tell that handling her stresses her a bit, should I try and out her in the heating pad again or just let her do her own thing?) I get the blood work results back next week and I’m am NERVOUS.

 

[xp29]

Yeah I do! I’ll post some of her normally. I’m gonna rant really quick too, because I feel like I need to let it out, but please feel free to skip it. I’m worried that her symptoms are due to my care. Like what if it’s something I’m doing? I cannot stop thinking that I could be doing better for her, but I don’t have as much income as I did when I first got her, so I have to be really thoughtful about what I buy now. She in hindsight has everything she needs but I don’t know if I’m missing something crucial. I just want her to be better. When I get pain next, I’m gonna buy a solar meter to check uvb and make sure that that’s good. Other than that, the only thing I could think of that could be causing this that isn’t necessarily and underlying issue, is stress. And what if I’m causing it, I’d never forgive myself. She’s also going through a pretty major shed right now, and she does definitely stress when she’s shedding. Anyways, here’s some more pics of her! (Also, I tried to put her on the heating pad tonight to keep her warm but she moved right off, and the vet said to limit handling and I can tell that handling her stresses her a bit, should I try and out her in the heating pad again or just let her do her own thing?) I get the blood work results back next week and I’m am NERVOUS.

1st off, please stop beating yourself up. Your doing fine.
Your giving her uvb and basking and that is the base we build their care on. Once the lighting is correct everything else is minor corrections. It is absolutely not uncommon from the beard to be gray like that. If she was in pain it would be black like the picture I posted of Zen. She looks really good in your new pictures.
Keep her hydrated (but don't obsess over it) give her calcium 3 to 5 times per week (once per day, just a light dusting, the bugs should not look like powered donuts) and give a multivitamin a couple times per week. From there just keep an eye on her and wait for her test results to come back.
Sometimes we obsess with worrying over them so much we forget to enjoys them.

 

[Abbipetty]

1st off, please stop beating yourself up. Your doing fine.
Your giving her uvb and basking and that is the base we build their care on. Once the lighting is correct everything else is minor corrections. It is absolutely not uncommon from the beard to be gray like that. If she was in pain it would be black like the picture I posted of Zen. She looks really good in your new pictures.
Keep her hydrated (but don't obsess over it) give her calcium 3 to 5 times per week (once per day, just a light dusting, the bugs should not look like powered donuts) and give a multivitamin a couple times per week. From there just keep an eye on her and wait for her test results to come back.
Sometimes we obsess with worrying over them so much we forget to enjoys them.

Thank you. I’m so sorry for the rant, I obsess over things that aren’t in my full control, and even when they are, I obsess over them being perfect. Thank you for hearing me out. Your guys are beautiful by the way!! I’ll try to chill out a bit. Thank you guys so much for all of your help.

 

[xp29]

Thank you. I’m so sorry for the rant, I obsess over things that aren’t in my full control, and even when they are, I obsess over them being perfect. Thank you for hearing me out. Your guys are beautiful by the way!! I’ll try to chill out a bit. Thank you guys so much for all of your

Don't apologize, this site is here to help everyone take the best care possible of their beardies. The collective knowledge of this community is amazing, some of the mebers here have been keeping beardies for decades.
Obsessing just proves you care the trick is figuring out what to obsess over and what not to
My guys say thank you