acidburn01
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- Toothless
Welp. We brought Nova back to do a recheck ultrasound at 10am this morning. We hadn't heard anything back all day today until just now. Chris got a voicemail from the vet. Essentially, the vet spoke with the surgeon and to give them a call back. So we did and they said there's no eggs, but some small follicles and they think she's a good candidate for going through with the surgery right now. But, like. I don't wanna hear a "i think she's a good candidate for this super invasive, traumatic and horrific surgery that doesn't have the greatest odds". Y'know.? From this surgeon, who's supposedly like one of the best, I wanna hear a "yes, this is her best chance to have this surgery as safe as possible." I need more definites than "i think" or "I believe". Y'all, I'm on the edge of a full-fledged panic attack. I know she needs it, I know it's causing the heart disease and fatty liver and it will improve both of those but.. fuuuuuuuuu--my anxiety can't take it. My heart can't take it. We brought Toothless with us, in case Nova needed a blood transfusion. The vet said he is big and weighs enough that, should she need one, he'd be perfect. So, I guess that worry is a little less. Sorta. But there are still so many things that could go wrong and she's had bad thing after bad thing after bad thing after bad thing stacked against her lately, it's like... I've almost come to expect something bad to happen during this.
Mentally, I don't know how I'm going to get through this. I'm worried that Im going to be so wrapped in my anxiety that I won't be able to provide her with the proper care to prevent secondary infection or anything like that. I'm way in over my head and don't know what the hell to do.
ETA: we spoke with the surgeon. He said there's some follicles and they're about 5cm right now. He originally said he thinks we should wait a week or two so she can have some recovery/nutritional recovery but when chris mentioned how quickly she was going from no follicles, to follicles to eggs to laying within a week or so of it all starting, he thinks we should go ahead and do it. Barring tragic complications, he said mortality was like 1 in 100 and she still basically had like a 90%+ chance of being around in 2025, as he put it. He said her ovaries could be a bit bigger come a week, thus making the surgery a bit safer/easier but at the same time, it could make it harder on her or she could reabsorb them entirely or within a week or so, make eggs and lay them. He said when beardies have this reproductive issue like Nova is having, nine times out of ten, they lay over and over and over until they die of exhaustion so he's fairly confident in her chances of being fine. One of the worst parts is the originally told us we could pick her up to be with us for the night but then came back and said because the hospital was closed, it'd be "really difficult" to get her out to us, whatever that means.
Anyway, so we have to bring Toothless up there at 8am sharp, they're going to check him in, do a check up to make sure he's all good and keep him on standby, in case she needs blood. They're going to let us visit Nova for a little bit while they do that and then do the surgery. He said, exempting complications and whatnot, we'll be taking her home by, like, Wednesday afternoon. So, excuse me while I take a handful of kolonopin and take a long nap until Wednesday afternoon. 
Enjoy this photo of Nova in a messy tank because she likes to kick her salad everywhere but will mean mug the hell out of me when I won't give her a bug.
Mentally, I don't know how I'm going to get through this. I'm worried that Im going to be so wrapped in my anxiety that I won't be able to provide her with the proper care to prevent secondary infection or anything like that. I'm way in over my head and don't know what the hell to do.
ETA: we spoke with the surgeon. He said there's some follicles and they're about 5cm right now. He originally said he thinks we should wait a week or two so she can have some recovery/nutritional recovery but when chris mentioned how quickly she was going from no follicles, to follicles to eggs to laying within a week or so of it all starting, he thinks we should go ahead and do it. Barring tragic complications, he said mortality was like 1 in 100 and she still basically had like a 90%+ chance of being around in 2025, as he put it. He said her ovaries could be a bit bigger come a week, thus making the surgery a bit safer/easier but at the same time, it could make it harder on her or she could reabsorb them entirely or within a week or so, make eggs and lay them. He said when beardies have this reproductive issue like Nova is having, nine times out of ten, they lay over and over and over until they die of exhaustion so he's fairly confident in her chances of being fine. One of the worst parts is the originally told us we could pick her up to be with us for the night but then came back and said because the hospital was closed, it'd be "really difficult" to get her out to us, whatever that means.
Anyway, so we have to bring Toothless up there at 8am sharp, they're going to check him in, do a check up to make sure he's all good and keep him on standby, in case she needs blood. They're going to let us visit Nova for a little bit while they do that and then do the surgery. He said, exempting complications and whatnot, we'll be taking her home by, like, Wednesday afternoon. So, excuse me while I take a handful of kolonopin and take a long nap until Wednesday afternoon. Enjoy this photo of Nova in a messy tank because she likes to kick her salad everywhere but will mean mug the hell out of me when I won't give her a bug.
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