I don’t know what to do with my beardie. I’ve been thinking about it and I just don’t know, I don’t even know if I’m posting this in the right forum. I guess I’m just asking if anybody can guide me and tell me what to do- idk. (Ok I just realized my name literally being idkman on this website is some really cruel joke). I have a bearded dragon named Max, I love him so so much but he’s scared of almost everything. Ever since I got home almost 5 years ago he’s been scared of every human. He hasn’t been aggressive since 4 and a half years ago. He’s fine with being held sometimes, pet, and taken out if his enclosure. He loves baths and is fine with being hand fed. Yet- his stress marks never go away, he tenses and starts breathing rapidly when I open his cage, sometimes he does run away. I can never wake him up because when I do, he bloats up and turns black. it’s been FIVE YEARS and I can’t even get him to feel safe. I can’t get him to feel happiness that lasts longer then getting a bath or treat. I can’t pet him sometimes without him closing his eyes, telling me to leave him alone. He just deserves so so much more because he really is a great bearded dragon. I don’t want to give up and I Love him so much but Clearly whatever I’ve been doing hasn’t been working and I clearly can’t help him and just freakin failed him. I also used to not be a good beardie owner. I still wouldn’t consider myself that much of a “good” bearded dragon owner. I was uneducated but worst of all- sometimes I didn’t even care. Like- I’ve walked by his cage and seen that it was a mess and then just continued on with my day- like???? or I’ve looked at the time to see that it was 5 and time for him to eat and then just said that I’d do it after I was done with binging some dumb episode only to end of forgetting to feed him or interact with him that day. That has got to be so freakin screwed up. He ended up getting parasites because guess what? Not cleaning a bearded dragons cage kinda makes them prone to that type of stuff! Who would have thought huh? Honestly that’ just so complete and utterly screwed up yknow. Ever since then, I’ve definitely improved but who’s to say I won’t revert back to being a crappy person. But anyways, I’ve been thinking of giving him away to someone who’s capable of helping him or I could continue to keep him and work with him myself- but I think that’s just me being selfish. If I we’re to keep him, he’d be in a more familiar environment and he knows me so he’ll feel safer and who know maybe one day he really will be truly happy. This option could also lead to the possibility that I revert back to being a crappy owner or he just doesn’t get better. If i were to give him away- I wouldn’t know what to do. I don’t know anyone who would take him in and I don’t know anyplaces in the Jacksonville area that woild work with him. (I’ll search that up and see what I find tomorrow) If someone does know a place and recommends it then please say something. Also is there even a place where u can board them to rehabilitate them like what they do with dogs?? If there is then that’s another option. However, I barely have money and even if I could take them to a place like that ik those guys would make me pay far too much money since max is an exotic animal. Now that that story is done, if anyone can just help me know what the best course of action is, I’d be so great full and I know max would too. I love him so much and he just needs to happy. Also going to give a bunch of pics of my chonky boy because everyone needs to see his beauty.