I’m so sorry for your loss with Taro I definitely feel for you it’s really been maybe the top 2 worst experiences of my life I miss her more everyday and keep smelling her blankets like a lunatic its been so hard to walk by my living room I’m always in my roomI cried reading this, I can see how much you deeply loved Ivy. It brought me back to my girl Taros loss, I still miss her too and it's been a couple years. Your girl is special and is still so loved. I'm so sorry it ended up this way but you really went above and beyond for her and did all you could.
I would encourage you to take your time to grieve, but also commend yourself for being an amazing pet owner with so much love to give, and maybe someday you could be that special carer for another sweet little beardie. We know so many of them are in need of great carekeepers and a lot do not get so lucky to have one. No beardie will ever replace Ivy, they are all so different and unique, each their own journey. I still cry when I think of Taro, and I know I'll be the same wreck when I someday have to say goodbye to my Charlie- but this hurt is part of being a pet owner. As their caregivers it is our duty and burden, and as tough as it is just remember that Ivy is was worth it.
I have been taking time to grieve but I don’t feel anywhere near better - how long did it take you to overcome it or be ok again? (I’m sorry for this question no need to respond if it makes you uncomfortable at all)
Ivy was definitely and always will be worth it I start crying every time there’s a nice sunset above the water I feel like its a gift for her to see I still can’t believe it
I will hopefully have another beardie just as sweet as ivy and wish I could give all beardies good homes it’s true and sad that not many have good carekeepers but I’m also worried to have another and make them sick or buy them sick again I’ll have to find a good breeder